It's Time for Joke Dreaming

"When you finally found someone that even when you close your eyes, sleep in class, watch TV, chat with your friends, or even when any girl pass by....

And you are only thinking about the SOMEONE

It must have been Love-Strucken. Well actually after seeing her for just a few seconds and knowing nothing more about her, I still was amazed about how I smiled the whole, whole day without anymore particular reason.

My pal calls this : "Joke Dreaming"

I spent the whole afternoon and then the whole night from mid-day sun to sun fall to sun rise again the next morning....just thinking about her. Just color my mood pink.

It's the first time in like 4 years that I woke up early and was eager to hit my university. The time there was the same. From morning till evening sitting "Joke Dreaming" on the stairways to my faculty just thinking about that very moment she passed by.

The mood was PINK for a few more days, when I finally realize something was wrong....I just saw her once and the time I'm "Joke Dreaming", I didn't see her again.
What a SmUG#@!*&^!!!

I should have been using the time to find out who she was, what year she enrolled, what faculty he stayed, and bla bla bla........stuffs you kind of research when you're aiming for someone.

Well....I've been daydreaming till it was Friday and it took me late evening to realize my big, BIG mistake. What was I doing back before: the experience about targeting someone, researching on her, and aiming to win her was to no avail.

Though from past experiences I felt I was a master, I realized now, I was just a complete failure in flirting and as the longest weekend arises, I know it'll take 3 more days before I'll be able to continue my search...Such such BoreDom....

Just When There Seems to be No MORE Hope!!!

From my everyday watching girls go by, never before did my mind been focused on any girl for a long time. Or was because I was learning in Engineering and I had to confess, None NONE and NONE of them were worth going after. They might have been either too short, too dark, too fat, too studious. Either way let's say they lack the sex appeal ladies in other faculties have. The ones that look good and interesting enough never lasted over a term in faculty.

The girls with great, great sex appeals were all offloaded to another campus @ Bangna, I'm staying put with all the ordinary scientific faculties such as Engineering, Science & Technology, Law, and Communication Arts @ Huamark campus.

Sometimes if things don't hit your standard, its not worth trying. It's not worth courting a girl just to release your loneliness and in the long run hurt her because you pretty found a new someone whom could keep you in better company. That was one way of life adolescence's use:

"Discard loneliness by trying different taste and style. Somehow some will surely work"

To be honest, that time though I'm hanging out one my girlfriend, trust me, never stop looking for the "SPECIAL ONE" until you really feel the one close to you is her. Let me describe how my "SPECIAL ONE" would be like. She might not have to be the best looking, smartest girl, most sexy, or to any extreme. If she was one that could conquer me and stop me from flirting on all four corners. If she can make me happy when together and missing her when we're apart, THAT'S ENOUGH.


Luck never deserts one who is always constantly searching. From my everyday sitting around campus, it seems like "Heaven sent an angel down" when i saw a bunch of beautiful cheerleaders. Never before did it seem like the world time STOpped (as also me) and the only thing moving were those hot group of cheerleaders (ones pictured above were one of them).

My body stopped moving, my heart beat slower but Louder, my brain going NULL. And finally when they walked past me, the only other reaction possible was my head and eye focusing and turning towards them as finally they got off my radar.

"YES"....one of them must be the one I'm looking for......and "YES" life in campus was finally worth coming.....mmmm....don't know if this means studying was just an excuse to find the "SPECIAL ONE" but Finally, once in a long time, I got a craving for someone and that someone was just struck on my brains for years to come!!!

Turning 20.....the age of daydreaming...more possibly Wet Dreaming

I started university when I was 16, and 4 years of watching extreme beautiful girls walk by every single day with their tight, slender, and beautiful customes, I started to turn up ripe....from the every day sight seeing done with my friends.

My life in university was one more of fun loving and adventurous than technically learning. I was jumping classes after classes due to laziness or sightseeing and end up sleeping in other classes to which I was kinda a bit nervy to skip another of their classes.

It was just about going to university, getting to the basketball court, trying to be a guy each lady tries to pick on, and deep-deep-down hoping to find the love of my life. Things weren't easy like the movies in all those comedian romantic ones cause here in Thailand, I hardly see any girl charging to pin down any guy while deep-deep-down....20 is an age where everyone was hoping to get to know more people and build more relationships than staying put and cementing their relationships.

Everyday was a constant fun with me and my pals scorching the university to find the best looking girl whom, if you returned home you're always wet-dream about. And the next day was probably better than yesterday, trying to search for that same girl and finding out at what time and place does she usually stay.

Seeing that someone each day was refreshing plus every new information gain was even more exciting. It just happens that unlike my pals, none has really ever caught me off-balance and worth pursuing after.

Every girl, though how much beautiful, has never been able to occupy my mind for long. And although after being in different relationships with different girls, deep-deep down, I still feel lonely.....