Finally found that someone!!

"Group of Sexy Lady"

I wasn't quite sure it was she who had rocked my world away. I remembered how she looked like in my dreams....well for probably 2 weeks by now. But in reality...this girl...was somehow...looked better than in my dreams.

One stare, two stare, three stares.............ten stares. It apparently should have been her! Though my eyes could have made illusions to satisfy my desire to see her, I believe my heart doesn't lie to me as it pounds faster and faster every other second.

And it took pretty sometime before I realize it was actually her...and now the world time began to run in slow motion and the colors turn grey again. My heart beat faster and louder, my eyes growing wider and wider.

The only reaction different from like 2 weeks ago was that, last time I stood still shell-shocked as she walked away. This time at least my body was not idle. My predatory instincts took over me after I kinda stay still almost like a passed out guy. It's like on auto-pilot mode and once I could get hold of myself, I found out that I was sitting at a table just beside them in a food shop.

It wasn't like the same old me, who if I target someone, I'll just go down and have a nice chat with particular in mind. You might be surprised how can I just go in and talk with no game plan or script. Well, it's best to say that if luck is on our side, we'll be able to talk and get acquainted. No matter how well the game plan or script, if it doesn't work, it doesn't. So it's best to give a natural shot...That's my nature in my flirting.

But for her it was something different.

"Every thought of talking to her made me shy. Every voice I heard from her made me blush. I was just not acting like my natural me!! That's might be when that she may be my special one!"

The next thing I knew was that they were about to finish their lunch and......dude......I haven't even started a move... That's kinda sucks for someone whose flirting experience is not of novice. Just had to admit at that moment my body was cold and my mouth was null. I just simply can't do anything at all.

Luckily the last words I hear from the gang before they left was...

Girl A: You know, from tomorrow onwards we got practice every evening.
Girl B: For what la?
Girl A: For the cheerleader tournament la.
My Target: Are we all forced to practice.
Girl A: Yeah, of course. Besides we're the best looking ones.
Girl B: Ya...the team's gonna be dull without us.
My Target: I don't like the feeling about everyday practice.
Girl A: Com'on. As if you got anything more entertaining to do.
My Target: I'm just afraid we're be targeted by those flirty eyes of men.
Girl B: That's unavoidable.
Girl A: Ya....better with eyes staring than no one staring.
Girl B: Second to the thought.
My Target: K....Guess see you tomorrow.
Girl A: Ya...in front of E Building la.
Girl B: Bye.

And when they finally left, I knew I'll get the chance to see her again now, since they'll be practicing cheerleader moves every evening in front of my faculty. Such a DREAM come true!!!

The Week of Advancement

After a long long weekend, Friday Night ... Saturday ... Sunday ... Monday ...
It's finally over. It was my first time I had been looking forward to hit my university. It was a first sight of joy my parents seen after 4 years of lacking off, that finally their boy got a yearning to finally learn something in his university.

I'll just go back to how I spent my weekend. Well, to be said,

"The more free time you got, the more you spend time thinking."

So if I just lay idle I'll be dreaming of her like 24-7 like a madman. So as all normal kids do, I turned on my Playstation console and started a lifelong Final Fantasy X-2 adventure where there's three beautiful girls Yuna, Riku, and Kain (if I remember their name's right). I'll just go transforming their uniforms and check the beauty of the animation.

And when I got bored, I ran to hit the basketball court. Weaving and slashing through defensive lines to hit numerous spectacular lay-ups.

Other than that, god don't blame me.....I'm still thinking of HER>>>>>

So I don't know if it's strange but I guess anybody in "love-strucken" mode will be somekind of like this....just want to know how other's will be...

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"Me brainstorming with my female friend"

So it came Monday, the first thing to do is hit my faculty building and brainstorm ways to which I can make it possible to see my TargeT........I went to find my first close girl friend (ummm.....say it's a female friend la) and spend my first moments to discuss about girl behavior.

Well....I was just hoping to know where girls hang out, where they usually be when they're free from class, and bla bla bla........

If it was me, I'll hit the basketball court or sit idle with my pals watching the girls go by....

But if it were girls....will they watch guys go by or hit the basketball court or rather be sipping coffee at Coffee World or eating french fries at McDonalds or even ice-cream at Swensen's.

1....2......3.......4....5........pages of full back to front A4 pages.

"I would probably like to post a flyer to reward anyone who'd known her whereabouts."

But since I'm low on budget, only thing I can do is spread the words and let my scouting network of junior engineer generations to find her out.

Let's say finding just 1 girl in like a 100,000 is worse than finding a needle in the sea. But if you can find her, it's really worth it. From sunrise till sun almost set, my scouting network went to every corner available in the campus and no sight was found...

All my amazement turned into despair and probably yet another day of disappointment and night dreaming......as usual my search continues......but when one gives up it's over...I started to head home having my head dropping......

Just when I heard a joyous noise from a group of girls............all were pretty charming and to the last of my gasp........all so very sexyyyy..........well, my instinct turned my head around and my senses got my saliva dripping....those bad behavior (girls say that) was what really changed the world for me...

How?......Cause she's suddenly in one of the many in that group!!!!

It's Time for Joke Dreaming

"When you finally found someone that even when you close your eyes, sleep in class, watch TV, chat with your friends, or even when any girl pass by....

And you are only thinking about the SOMEONE

It must have been Love-Strucken. Well actually after seeing her for just a few seconds and knowing nothing more about her, I still was amazed about how I smiled the whole, whole day without anymore particular reason.

My pal calls this : "Joke Dreaming"

I spent the whole afternoon and then the whole night from mid-day sun to sun fall to sun rise again the next morning....just thinking about her. Just color my mood pink.

It's the first time in like 4 years that I woke up early and was eager to hit my university. The time there was the same. From morning till evening sitting "Joke Dreaming" on the stairways to my faculty just thinking about that very moment she passed by.

The mood was PINK for a few more days, when I finally realize something was wrong....I just saw her once and the time I'm "Joke Dreaming", I didn't see her again.
What a SmUG#@!*&^!!!

I should have been using the time to find out who she was, what year she enrolled, what faculty he stayed, and bla bla bla........stuffs you kind of research when you're aiming for someone.

Well....I've been daydreaming till it was Friday and it took me late evening to realize my big, BIG mistake. What was I doing back before: the experience about targeting someone, researching on her, and aiming to win her was to no avail.

Though from past experiences I felt I was a master, I realized now, I was just a complete failure in flirting and as the longest weekend arises, I know it'll take 3 more days before I'll be able to continue my search...Such such BoreDom....

Just When There Seems to be No MORE Hope!!!

From my everyday watching girls go by, never before did my mind been focused on any girl for a long time. Or was because I was learning in Engineering and I had to confess, None NONE and NONE of them were worth going after. They might have been either too short, too dark, too fat, too studious. Either way let's say they lack the sex appeal ladies in other faculties have. The ones that look good and interesting enough never lasted over a term in faculty.

The girls with great, great sex appeals were all offloaded to another campus @ Bangna, I'm staying put with all the ordinary scientific faculties such as Engineering, Science & Technology, Law, and Communication Arts @ Huamark campus.

Sometimes if things don't hit your standard, its not worth trying. It's not worth courting a girl just to release your loneliness and in the long run hurt her because you pretty found a new someone whom could keep you in better company. That was one way of life adolescence's use:

"Discard loneliness by trying different taste and style. Somehow some will surely work"

To be honest, that time though I'm hanging out one my girlfriend, trust me, never stop looking for the "SPECIAL ONE" until you really feel the one close to you is her. Let me describe how my "SPECIAL ONE" would be like. She might not have to be the best looking, smartest girl, most sexy, or to any extreme. If she was one that could conquer me and stop me from flirting on all four corners. If she can make me happy when together and missing her when we're apart, THAT'S ENOUGH.


Luck never deserts one who is always constantly searching. From my everyday sitting around campus, it seems like "Heaven sent an angel down" when i saw a bunch of beautiful cheerleaders. Never before did it seem like the world time STOpped (as also me) and the only thing moving were those hot group of cheerleaders (ones pictured above were one of them).

My body stopped moving, my heart beat slower but Louder, my brain going NULL. And finally when they walked past me, the only other reaction possible was my head and eye focusing and turning towards them as finally they got off my radar.

"YES"....one of them must be the one I'm looking for......and "YES" life in campus was finally worth coming.....mmmm....don't know if this means studying was just an excuse to find the "SPECIAL ONE" but Finally, once in a long time, I got a craving for someone and that someone was just struck on my brains for years to come!!!

Turning 20.....the age of daydreaming...more possibly Wet Dreaming

I started university when I was 16, and 4 years of watching extreme beautiful girls walk by every single day with their tight, slender, and beautiful customes, I started to turn up ripe....from the every day sight seeing done with my friends.

My life in university was one more of fun loving and adventurous than technically learning. I was jumping classes after classes due to laziness or sightseeing and end up sleeping in other classes to which I was kinda a bit nervy to skip another of their classes.

It was just about going to university, getting to the basketball court, trying to be a guy each lady tries to pick on, and deep-deep-down hoping to find the love of my life. Things weren't easy like the movies in all those comedian romantic ones cause here in Thailand, I hardly see any girl charging to pin down any guy while deep-deep-down....20 is an age where everyone was hoping to get to know more people and build more relationships than staying put and cementing their relationships.

Everyday was a constant fun with me and my pals scorching the university to find the best looking girl whom, if you returned home you're always wet-dream about. And the next day was probably better than yesterday, trying to search for that same girl and finding out at what time and place does she usually stay.

Seeing that someone each day was refreshing plus every new information gain was even more exciting. It just happens that unlike my pals, none has really ever caught me off-balance and worth pursuing after.

Every girl, though how much beautiful, has never been able to occupy my mind for long. And although after being in different relationships with different girls, deep-deep down, I still feel lonely.....